I never want to stop growing. I make a lot of mistakes...but it's really important to me to be able to always look back on my life and see how I've grown. One step back, two steps forward. Or sometimes, 10 steps back and 11 forward.

The last few days have been really good for me. When I wrote my last blog, I was having a hard day. I realized as I was writing that my real problem was that I hadn't made time with God a priority. I'm not talking about quick little prayers or a morning "devotional" thing. I mean REAL time. Time where I could shut up for awhile. Time where I could think. Time where I could listen.

So, I finished my blog and headed to the water.

The time I spent with the Creator of the Universe that night was powerful. It woke me up. And I realized a couple of things.

One - I needed to tell God I was sorry about a couple things. I won't get into all those details (geesh...nosy). Mostly, I need to repent of the fact that I hadn't truly been making Him a priority. Just kind of consumed with my own life.

Two - I realized that I had been letting other people's bad moods or attitudes drag me down. I normally don't let that happen - I don't think I do anyway. It seemed like there were a lot of people having a hard time staying positive that day/week. And it was affecting me. But I don't want to be the person who is drug down by such things.

God and I had a good serious chat. Those two or three hours by the water changed everything.

The next day, I got up and went to lead music for a retreat for Hilton Head Christian Academy.

And God was there too.
And He moved. He used me. He taught me. He stretched me. He deepened my faith.

I have grown. Again.

I want to be the person who's 90 and well aware of the fact that they don't have all the answers. I want to still be growing at that age and all the time in-between.
May we never stop growing.

My greatest fear would be to look back over the past 5 years of my life and think, "Man, I'm pretty much in the same place spiritually as I was back then." How sad.

After all, I serve a really big God. I'd be a fool to ever assume I have God (or life) all figured out.

And if I haven't got Him figured out, then I'd be a fool to not care enough to do something about it.