Having a hard day.

It's amazing to me how being tired affects your mood so much.

For some reason, my body is DRAINED. I'm SO exhausted! And it truly has affected my attitude, even though I've tried desperately not to let it out. It's one of those days that I just feel like everyone's talking about me. I don't know if that makes sense to anybody, but I guess I'm feeling very defensive. Everything's bothering me. I'm irritable. And that bothers me! It's not who I am.

It's not like I have a bad life...not by a LONG shot. In fact, my life is unstinkin' believable!

Why do we get like this? Anybody in the same boat? Are you smellin' what I'm steppin' in?

I'll tell you why we get like this. It's because we don't take breaks.

I really just need some time to crash and think - some time to myself. I haven't had one of my "spiritual retreat" days in quite some time. Sure, I've had a vacation and days off with my wife. But I've not had time to process anything. Those times have been busy and not so quiet. I've had no time for sitting still and listening. No time to think. No time to pray.

But here's the deal. It's not REALLY that I don't have time. It's that I've filled the time with other things. Good things, but other things. I have been running around like an idiot, trying to do everything I'm supposed to...but now I'm running out of gas. When I pray, I'm pretty much saying "Good morning God..." and then my thoughts trail off and I stop talking to God. Can anybody relate?

Hmmmmmmm......

I'm realizing as I write this that I have the opportunity to take time TONIGHT...RIGHT HERE AND NOW. I had other plans...good plans. Plans to just be there for someone else. And I'll still do that...but later. Right now, I need to hang out with the Creator of the Universe and shut up and listen for awhile.

I CAN do something about this. It's not just a matter of getter more sleep. Really.

I'm heading to the water...